Go with the flow

In order to write a story or a song, why is it that I have to work myself into an emotional state? I have a problem with that because I really cannot fake it. I mean, I cannot "act" that emotional state. I have to have it for real, and then I get the creative juices flowing and when I do write, it then become possible for me to be creative...which means what I write is "flowing", not contrived or self-conscious.

I really adore Haruki Murakami, especially when he suddenly became a writer and he is not preconceived or try to teach people, but he just went with the flow of thoughts...

I want to write like him, free of pre-concepts, easy and flowing...

Revelation

Recently, I went through a period of self-discovery.
They say that when you are in love, you are actually trying to find missing pieces of your self.
When I was 13 years old, I was trying to find myself. I was a lonely kid. I really needed a friend then. Not just any friend.
Looking back now, that friend was not born yet and it wasn't until 33 years later that I met that friend.
I think all my life I kept on trying to find the missing pieces.
Now, I have found them.
That is my story.

Human Imperfection

'In his final hours, he had tidied up the manuscript so that his wife could find it. Below it, around it, inside his two computers, on old floppy disks in his drawers were hundreds of other pages—drafts, character sketches, notes to himself, fragments that had evaded his attempt to integrate them into the novel. This was his effort to show the world what it was to be “a f***ing human being.” He had not completed it to his satisfaction. This was not an ending anyone would have wanted for him, but it was the ending he chose.'

http://thepenguinblog.typepad.com/

I was reading a novel by Murakami, and the story was about human imperfections, and that the protagonist was a 15 year old boy, Kafka, who ran away from home and who met with characters who were like him, who ran away and try to discover themselves. The story juxtaposed with another one, an elderly handicapped man, Nakata, who could converse with cats, on account of an incident that occurred when he was a young boy, where he was unconscious for a long time, and when he woke up, he experienced the lack of memory where he could not remember a thing about himself, his family and everything else. But he could talk to cats.

There is something perfect about human imperfections. It is not an apology or an excuse, but an insight of the human condition that describes the reality of humans are.

Warrior of the Light

I like to read Paulo Coelho's books and now am reading on his latest "Warrior of the Light". This is one of the excerpts reminding me of a lesson that I need to learn.

A Warrior of the Light is never in a hurry.

Time works in his favor; he learns to master his impatience and avoids acting without thinking.

By walking slowly, he becomes aware of the firmness of his step. He knows that he is taking part in a decisive moment in the history of humanity and that he needs to change himself before he can transform the world. That is why he remembers the words of Lanza del Vasto: " A revolution takes time to settle in."

A Warrior never picks fruit while it is still green.

I am getting tired of pretensions or pretentiousness

At this point in my life, I am getting tired of pretensions and/or pretentiousness either by myself or other people.

Visual map thesaurus on pretentious

I don't need all that exaggeration and bravado, and same goes for anyone who puts it on.

Why cannot we deal with the most important things in life? Why must we get into all sorts of drama or scenarios and not really getting to what matters most?

Black and White

Often we live in grey areas, where things are not so clear-cut and we can venture in-between and around the subject matter at hand, which could be relating to others or being involved with dealing with people. It is easier when it's not hard and fast, black and white and plain as day.

Fence-sitters love the grey areas of life.

I try not to be a fence-sitter, but sometimes it is safer.

When you decided to choose to sit on either side of the fence, or when you decided to make it clear, black and white and where you stand, people are not going to like it.

But when you decide and when you do it, the work can begin. The work on your life to move you forward. To learn the lessons waiting to be taught.

Black and white is only about clarity and making the decision clearly.